Well, you can make something of your life better than death most always, unless you are a slave, which you probably wouldn't be here if you were. Just get a job, get healthy, find the right medicine and make some friends at video game venues, church, the mall... If none of that works move to a new place and start that fresh. Pick up some hobbies and that's about as far as life takes me except school and vacations as well. In doubt don't and don't feel bad that you didn't hurt yourself. Respect yourself for all your efforts and be an optimist towards yourself and with the know that life has ups and downs to come. Get close with the people you trust and let them in, two minds is better than one. If you follow all that and respect god or goodwill you are good to go your own way in my eyes.
