Lumeinshin
I do think it's a good work and I do think it has a purpose, thank you for your compliment. It was never supposed to be like this, it started out as a ordinary portrait and I was influenced by Freud in this to start with, so his paintings of himself topless in his studio.

A photographic example but there is a painting somewhere (that he painted).
And I realised looking at my studies I was using for it that one had a flash and one didn't (I was working from a photograph). So looking at the naturally lit study I saw the shadows were much more pronounced so I really went at it to get the light and dark and this image was just created.
And I looked at it and I thought 'stop, that's it it's done'. It is surrealistic, it's beyond the artist, it's a really strange experience.
I feel about it that it's similar to the Wasteland by Elliot. In that it's transformational, by confronting something that's disturbing it also allows grieving in a safe way. I find it to be a very peaceful painting, it's sad, but it's things that are sad that have passed, that can't hurt us anymore type thing.
Thanks for reading, sorry about the blog. Right, do a bit of painting.